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Confession: I stopped writing a while ago. And I'm done being ashamed about it. It didn't feel right. This year wasn't a year for writing. I was just torturing myself and I know that's part of wha NaNoWriMo is supposed to be about but not for me. I've participated in NaNoWriMo three times before and it was always hard, challenging but ultimately fun. It was a rewarding experience. And this year it did not feel right. I could have pushed through but I think I made the right decision.

Right now I am sitting in my house, home for Thanksgiving break. I am back in my favorite chair on my computer just like old times. Last time I visited home everything just kind of felt awful. There were bad feelings still rippling on the surface and it was not a good experience. This time it's all calmed down and it actually feels nice.

My parents are watching the History channel at the moment. It's a special on the White House and they have Laura and G. W. on talking about it. I am a steadfast Democrat and policy-wise disagree with the former president, but, honestly, I kind of like the man. He's endearing. Not really a good president but a nice guy. And listening to Laura and Dubya talk about the White House is kind of sweet.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I turn 19. I've never been much of a birthday person. This year I'm not really doing anything except getting dinner with my friends. My mom bought me cupcakes from Graul's, which was just about the greatest birthday surprise ever. My grandfather and my godparents actually forgot my birthday this year. A little disconcerting. I come from a big family but I'm the youngest of the cousins and I'm often just overlooked. I'm used to it. In some families, the youngest child is spoiled but that's not the case for me. There are just so many other children that I'm just lost at the back of the line. But it's ok. I'm not one to want to be the center of attention, hence my aversion to birthdays.

All I want for my birthday is to see all my old friends. And so I'm very excited to do just that tomorrow.